One of my goals

List the seven best qualities of the people you admire. Work on one quality at a time.

There is one person in particular that I admire. This is someone I've never personally met, though I have known her for years. T is, for lack of a better word, just awesome. Her faith, acceptance, strength, intelligence and general attitude are what I admire most. While I know that I'm not seeing the whole picture, the days that everyone has when they're at their worst, she always projects this radiance of love, fun. T is such a great person.

This goal is one that has been on the edges of my mind for the past couple of weeks. I hadn't really thought about it. But this morning when I read something that T wrote I KNEW that she was one I wanted to emulate. I only listed 5 qualities above, but I'm sure that those will be a good start.

Steps and family

I read something today about the old saying "One step forward, two steps back," and how it has a negative impact. The article also mentioned that if you turn that statement around the impact is more positive, one step back, two steps forward.

That's a good way to think about falling off the nutrition wagon. I know that weekends are going to be my hard points. So in my case, 5 steps forward, 2 steps back. But it's still progress. I've eaten well for almost a week and that's been enough to get some better habits started. I've found that I really enjoy a certain breakfast. 2/3 cup cereal, 4 oz milk, .5 oz raisins, a piece of whole wheat toast and 1tbl raspberry jam. My second day having this breakfast I realized something. Every time I saw my grandparents growing up, THIS was the exact breakfast (minus coffee *shudder*) they would eat. I was floored.

What does that have to do with the step thing? Nothing really, but I did find that I felt a little more connected to my grandparents, and THAT is a step in the direction of finding out who I am and trying to figure out who I want to be. I realized that I want my grandkids to remember what I ate for breakfast and look back on it as a fond memory.

Posting a clarification

in my last post I mentioned taking care of everything at home. While it seems like that's the case it really isn't. Not really. C has been sick sick sick. First he had a run-in with pneumonia and from the coughing and hacking from that he gained an umbilical hernia.

So yeah... it's been rough, but he's not as much as a slacker as I made him out to be.

Weight of the world

Not sure what's happened over the past couple of days, but it sure seems like I'm carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. Today was even to teh point where I had a bit of paranoia and felt like I was on the verge of a mental breakdown. Suddenly life was very hard and everyone was against me. While I knew this wasn't the case, it was still a hard thing to shrug off. I just feel that each area of my life is turning to me for support and I just can't do it anymore. I can't be the person who takes care of everything at work, I can't take care of everything at home, heck, I can barely take care of myself these days it seems.

Not to mention that it's all exacerbated by this headache I've had for the past couple of days that NOTHING is helping to get rid of.

In other news, M has informed me that she's going to be a mommy AND a teacher when she grows up. Oh, and she's going to have 5 kids too. No clue where that number came from.

And A says that he's going to be brave and get a haircut. Don't know when that'll happen, but it's so cute when he's brave. He's a good kiddo.

Need a new vaccuum?

5 minutes for Mom is giving away a Dyson Slim Vaccuum. Heck, why not try for a shot. Be quick about it. The contest ends on April 4. U.S. only, sorry Nik. And thanks sweethomealagirl for letting me know about it :)